journals 73-74

 

Journal 73: fire and our sins

I drew morgan

This is a symbol that is me as maleck touse. Im someone named maleck touse. Ive done alot under that name, but theirs no religious ties to it, anywhere i look it up. I am now in religions, but my name is still a deadzone of silence, and im missing in action in alot of ways about to enter my phase of shinigami. I was once this bitch named shinigami. I was, always whisked away to stories, and i was delusionally identifying with people i was, that i was, that i iturned out to be, everytime but was so color blind about thie being proof of their names, thrus they exist,a nd i dont cus im fiction at th e moment, that it sorta kind awent down rooths road. I am taking the path of the shadow rider along with my rainbow whichery where im stds, and im pony pails watercolor and gen 6 Depresion Clinical ponies. That loo to cute to exist. Its stupid being weird my little pony art styles, of pony pails, and like a system of about 60 others. I performed the sabbath with my husband tony, so that occurred. And that looks like very drinkable chocolate. My mouth burned after estbalihsing heaven tastes in enoch yesterday so hard i could not talk to god. Even though i have stitches on my mouth as its sewn closed.

This is me as of th movement. Graph shows a boy with blondeish red hair, draped over a facade of bandages on his arms, held up in a defensive positon, with markings of ku klux klan on his writsts, that indicate ninjago on th epalms of his hand with stitches throughout them, he is in a white straight jacket but with his hands exposed, and is covered head to toe in stitches, across his face and his outfit. He is looking at th ecmaera smiling, and his mouth is stitched close with exes stitches, and so is his eyes partially. His hair is long, and he is covered in freckles.

I know, i know, your sewn shut! Shut up. Im doing cult things. Its just theirs stitches on my eyes and they keep closing and its not even when imt ired. Im gona go eat more rice pudding treat. So yeah still in conversion therapy.

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This is my art and the art style of shadow riders. This is art of me in general with teh aspect i am right now which is ngmtind.

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-Acrians Locket

11/16/2024

Journal 74

“Susan did you buy this book for him?” “I did.” “I dont think this is a bad sell its the book of bill” “i know im judt a god there maried to adnoai sucks ass knowing jeff. He was yaweh when we first met” do I found two hard as shit ti find books. Mermaids the myth and legends and lore with cencered out photos of mermaids. And then the book of Bill. Which is not a tie into gravity falls it's about me as the entity. What? Your not the old guys that play in lodges? No that's something for the American money and stolen moments magick. Bill cipher is an entity ive come to know for a long time now. When I was loe as Memer himself time traveled, growing up and orphan was all thst mattered To me. And the ginger pride symbol ayrian. I found a faith in bills name as a pact with him since I also founded mormonism, Satanism, neos second branch judaism, children, and teenagers as the prophet zacharaih. But this is the last one for a long time as Alex hitch. No gravity falls was autobiplollahical I never hated Bill when I was younger as dipper the deep seated feelings were hating myself thinking he was me and being terrified myself of arousal. No I had a huge crush on Bill I never hated him as that incarnation. I was slkie stupid deep and aroused by the cat mother fucked. Also I was illustrated by my person today. Nehold. 

This is the mermaid book.

Acfians locket is the most famous and cencered magickal diary on earth. I was seen at the start of my career as an idiot hoaxist, who was a larger becuase believed in erick koetting being a real human person and enemy of his when I am not my own enemy as erick is my old identity but instead it was stolen as an identity from.me by haoxist mathew lauranza. Who has an ass fetish with lilith obsession and he looks like mathew buck. Film brain. Anyways. Uh. I was seen as a internet Charleston for making up that magick was real as merlin. It was seen as against the whole ions only religion which was in galitay From bce centric to now new near Neverland, um chrisniaty. Jeudiasm existed and so did Germany which is on a timeless role play of it forever via its time zone. Um. I as morgana le fey had to often state I was not my student morgana pendragon. As I was the sin to uther known as king Arthur. I am the only king Arthur that isn't god. And im also Davina the teenage bjtch and loreli or scoreline. And no I hate it being translated to samantha I don't hate my name. I dont hate proper pronunciations or spellings of my name Samael. But this is one of the most hard to find books in eternity. And I was at the end of my first deified as jwsus christ. Thst is sometimes cencered out of popular bookstore versions of my diary theirs no pen black ink where you'd find this now. And jts unsecured online where you can read it. I am the historical prophet Debra and zacheriah who created judaism. And I agreed to age into Bill. It started Simple with my archins case now matching his. Same with dexter Morgan. And no I was framed as dexter and ran away. Even though I was scrubbed in the end. I'm a 16 old with archins hmddoesnt age via magick and a quest I went for it on called the quest of rapshedy or journey to the west and I found it. But it gave Me a heavy youth disorder and omophoniounis. Um. I founded i Don't know why wmart as a special crafts bookstore. A special crafts book is a book in feelings of shadow riders crafts and building thigns forbiddn knowledge or great Greek epic or a story dedicated to religions thst isn't blind worship of anyone that's not Jesus christ. And reflections of And on sabath honed witchcraft Like mpd systems that can just be listed by sensationlization or epic laundry of its authors request even fiction, or books on the hearts of Jesus and christ just listed, otherwise its honed by the reading tastes and ecsions of indefinite launches by adam snowflake and acrians locket and aliester crowley. All one person but still a good acknowledgement. Anyways. My deification is that im a teenage emo fsgot forever. And I'm happy about that. I also decided finally how you'd cencer my works. Book 1 would be cencered by furies paintings or pony Pails artworks or depictions by artist Angelo, and or spirit of the art or gibeirshastics poems and poetry, before and intertwined with it to lesson and soften blows and black out texts and dialect translations and editions. “Okay wuote me directly. Thanks for letting me keep slavery boy ok. Do what you put is by pictures of animals or animals of place of magickal creatures. Sentient art so artistic crafts in the ways of monolith um mosaics um any philosophy and philosophy schools of thought and movement or honest sacred to a practice your retail art or the art of left handed path, black out blocks of tezmxt of the main writing system and then some entries in old text for no reason. Where it's like modern till a point. Then its alietrarion so poetry and writing in the middle that those characters novels or disputes of it the info or directors comentary like the skeptics animated Bible so basically misdirection is all like you cencer it with and hiding magick. There are in place of some entries pictures in diary wntrees then that ive seen instead pages ive seen of balcked out text that sound good? Yeah. Im so happy you said yes to Bill and annie. And no I'm just being a dick to Amelia till she fucks me it worked the first time. And not to her partners she is she. It makes us much more comfy as the men. And her women lesbians. You were so cool as aim by the way “ -God, as his prophet that settled down to be him weird all yankasvic, who settled down to be OPHEHIM as god.

Anyways. Uh. So yeah, i find hard to find books alot, but this was placed by bill for me to stumble across, “it was” -bill, and i found it as a book on who we were enad wh at well be, and and it sliek the book is takling to me in a way that normal books do not. Your never gona be able to find it. Its ireivelent and some of it was written as i picked it up by him. The history of you finding this book is hard, you just have to ask me and prove youve earned it says bill hating you for this, but i highly doubt youll find it, you may, its just extremely iunlikley same witht ehmermaids book by alexander, without a lst name, “Their both by you you should know that” -Andy as andoia. Yeah, its just alot of things and i feel priv yto have them now in my possessions. But yeah i feel hated by doax, even though i said yes to my fathers archins case, and no ive only ever seen the tv show dexter censored, i dont even know how it ends but i watched all of it, and i saw all i could that was aired to me, on dvd and boxart, i hope they went with the ending where i was schizophrenia, rather then fbi, because i was innocent and thats all i care about right now as a detective framed for a lot of school shootings. WHich may have a lot to do with me being a detective, but i dont know. Or my columbine tape that was taken down off youtube of me stoping the event, we were all placed in missing persons including me, and it was revaeld int hat tape i stoped the shooter and that i benevelolently bombed the place to stop him. I met myself as decker after drinking colombia coffee and he was like, “Your drinking liquid school shootings so decky carang” and i was like. “The first thing about being me” and i was like “your weirdly rewarded for tihs activity of stoping them alot based off what it would be like if you did it”. As the first soul i ever aged into was black magick erick koetting, the second soul simon cowell, and the third soul Syrenity Davidson, of harley moterbykes. The history of my archins dissorder being exploited by me to age into souls and other people is exhtravagant. No you can just have fucking archins, it can even be hreeditary, but their were rituals you did young if you ever developed it. The history of them being real magic sometimes sometimes its an crazy kid with adhd or ocd, and they just cant help but latch on to what they read online about staying young not wanting to age into adulthood. Its kind of weird and really irrelevant and i really have to get to this book by bill. Its just kind of weird. Um. And no i found the name its skye alexander but it just appeared phased on the book for me to find, and that i means i wrote this and that its censored. Um. The mermaids book. That is. Published by adams media, which is my name in meedia after it. And all that offends me is on the back of hte book they use she for me. I was male when i wroote this cus i think i know which one its a cancer of though i wrote it blacked out, and as skye everdeen, i only ever identified as male even though i looked like this.

I was cassandra claire when i wrote it, and as a result i woudnt of been, skye everdeen even though it was censored under it, and when i think of that even though its skye alexander it makes me think they knew of my crosdressing under my other names and aliases or that a family has to do with its printing, of mine. Regardless i like the book even though i cant tell that half of it is missing and chunked out, im just happy to own my work even though its missing the photos of mermaids i was promised by every which spirit id fine.

Theyve stopped adorning the whole “Your going to escape overnight in three days” thing that they have been adorning here in conversion therapy, i have what like 2 weeks left, and yes i had a body guard stop with ian my therapist who i met the archins case of back when he was cameroon. My mom took me to mellow mushroom on mars needs mom day and it was stupid how i acted as little tony of the mafia.

Wegiowejog iewogijwe ogijewoj weogi jweojiwegowj woig jwgoewij wogijw wgoijw gwogij wgwoigj wgweoij wegwogi weegoiji weweoiji wewoiji wgweoijwe weoijweig wegoiwej wgoweiji afasoijiasfmiojwegmweoigwegjewmwieogjwe wewegoiwijg ewweogijw ewgowiji weewegoij wgweoij wgwegoij wweoijjw gwegoij weeoiewjg wegoij wegoijwe aofijasmiojwgmiowejwemigwejmewiojewgmoewijwgmwoiwegweoji ewogjwoigj we ogjewiogjewoijg ewgweoij wegweoigj wgwegoiijwee gwegwgoijiwe gwegwoijg ewgweogijwe goiewj ewgwei.

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Weegoiwjeg ewiojg weoigj ewojgi ewgoewij gewgoiiwejg ewoijewgoeiwj gewoijg wegjoiew gwoigj ewgoiewj gewoigj ewgoijew gewgoiwejigewmoiewjgweigowejweo.

And yes i plan to travel with him soon. But all of the doctors companions have to be pad locked. He wasnt going to padlock me like the others, but it seemed, he had to so i can stay in the tardis because my anatomy compared to his ship is a sentient star so he has to lock me in physical form tehre and in those places, so we can actually travel together. I really miss having friends, because i would straight up be crazy to them, i woudl act out of turn, it wasnt all imaginary people who are invisible in the widlnerness and idiots claiming taclafeyne, and yes historically i am him retired so i am usually only really good terms with his enemies, that fear and know the character he was in my past as jaden to his face.

The time period were in right now, doctors whos official as russel t davies, 1-11 doctors have been buried by the event again meaning were producing more of it. Its only produced as doctor who during hte event of ww2. And its only produced by mainstream chanels with 11 doctors per channel, so to call it doctor who youd have 11 actors play him, and theyd be the originals on hermedtics and allah reels, and a few weird sets using those kind of tapes which is shadowriders magick since allah is one of the main gods of that path, which is a path i have chosen to take by the way along with rainbow witchery.

I had known i was kogonae. I just didnt think i was tony who kogone was. And i said no to him. Which means i outgrew kogone. Because i tried to say yes to his letter and then i remembered that story and the limits present to it by god.

Regarding doctor who i am jaden, the doctor, rose tyler, and amilia pond and aldirc. As well as dazai whenever that airs, as they do new companions all the time, they just dont normally do the others. And no i was balllpointed and cgid’ over teh dexter hawkufilm. They replaced me on teh tenth doctors series with an actor as well becaus i played the doctor on tennents and smiths act and run. Because i am david tennet and i am matt smith and no i have not done any fanshows. Its kind of important that i havent. And that they are all the sonic hitler type who is david tennet grant. Its importnet to that notion of notoriety.

But yeah i plan tot read these grimoures and tell you what i think since it is blacked out as the mermaid book that i wrote and just like my work gems of teh equinox which i got early but coudnt seem to read by morgan my students spells on the book to keep me sane, iit devastated me he has to kind of sort of remove those spells no matter his benefit or were not friends anymore. And yeah i told my mom the truth about morgan. Hes been in and out of the hospital for some time. Shuffleda round there engard. So yeah i hit three today, hitting my archisn out of order, enver effects a golden retrievers mentality.

Ay marly and me?

• Acrians locket

• 6:52 PM

• 11/16/2024